Friday, April 12, 2013

proposal defence

hello everyone.

proposal, my own words, is what you have planned to do.

i am not lucky, i have to do the defense two times. but, i am a chosen one! it was last november, i did my defense. they accepted my idea, but then they were not satisfied with my literature writing. my bad. normally they just ask to rewrite the proposal (read:improve) since i am the chosen one, i need to represent (read : re-defense) my proposal.

look at the positive site, what ever it is, i still need to improve the proposal. my presentation skills is very bad, re-defense give me another chance to speak in front of them. *yeah right*

yesterday, 11 April, was my second defense. alhamdulillah everything went smooth. after my first defense, the head of department advise me to start my research work, since i only need to improve the literature part *academic writing is not funny!*

finally i completed my proposal defense in my third semester.

meanwhile, i have started my research work. i am using both qualitative and quantitative approaches. now i am doing the qualitative part. meeting good people. :)

i am struggling to complete my first validation before i off for my mid year holiday. first validation process sounds so simple, yet it is complicated. preparing the documents for validation, meeting people, analyze the data, refining, re-validate (second round of validation for the first process). *hope for minor refining process*

i have not seen my supervisor about 5 weeks after i started my validation process. unfortunately, he was in the office when i went to the office to collect form from the PA. i have nothing to show him. but i updated the progress.*discussing+ asking opinion+etc* *correction, luckily he was in the office*

way to go. let me finish my work. see you again later. :)

Thursday, February 21, 2013

A Lonely Journey

Hello everyone.

It's been a while i did not drop any words here. Been busy. nothing interesting to write. what else?

I'm now competing with myself to get things done. identifying the factors for validation process. give explanations, rewording etc. it sound simple, yet it is complicated.  i have registered for the third semester last week. hoping that the validation process will start soon.

i am lonely. yes, i have to admit that i am on my lonely journey. i strongly agreed with this statement "A PhD is unlike any other qualification. It requires more than reading, doing coursework and attending lectures. A PhD relies on candidates' insight and inspiration. You will probably go - at least temporarily - mad in the process. But if you have the opportunity, stock up on the jelly babies and dolly mixtures and go for it. It is a life-changing experience."

people are around me. but they do not understand me. do not understand my journey. do not feel how i am suffering with this journey. unless they had gone through this lonely journey. 

yesterday, i had lunch with my UPSI friend, after he defended his proposal. congrats friend! but he's a bit disappointed, because he need to improve here and there. don't worry, just do it! i have gone through this. It is true, after all that, we need to talk to someone who understand. someone who had been suffering ....

this lonely journey needs me to organize my own schedule. when to have a discussion with supervisor? what to do, what to read. where is the most comfortable place to do my work? my supervisor shared his calendar, so it's a bit easier for me to catch his time. *yeah i wish* but still, it is not easy to get his time. luckily i am able to make appointment during lunch time,  say from 12 noon to 2.30 pm. *syukur* it can be any days, even on Saturday. 

this lonely journey makes me think more about food. food is my second best friend after books. yes, coffee too. *now is 3 something in the morning, and i am still wide awake* i wish i can have low fat latte now. *i only have black coffee at home*

this lonely journey thought me how to struggle. so i start running. i am not a marathoner, not even run Half Marathon. * i wish i will be able to run HM* 

this lonely journey....

i need to get back to work, catcha some other time. :) 

Friday, January 4, 2013

welcome 2013

hello everyone.
happy new year. welcome 2013. this coming February, my journey will reach one year old. one year sounds new, but the 365 days is a long journey. still nothing much to say.

my proposal? i have submitted the correction, and still waiting for feedback. pray for a good feedback.As promise, i manage to submit before Christmas. i hope my head of department will not take long to respond. most probably i need to defend the proposal again. i might say re-present, because i am going to present the same ideas. hopefully, the eternal panel will satisfied with it. *external panel is from UPM* whatever it is, please pray for me.

concurrently, i am doing my first stage of my research work. besides identify all the critical success factors, i also identify potential respondents for the validation process. The experts, practitioners and academicians. hopefully by end of February i manage to start the first validation process.

a part from all that, i currently improve my writing for chapter 1 to chapter 3. yes, i have done my proposal defense without get all the chapters done. actually it is not properly written. you will not be able to propose what  you going to work for your research if you are not working with all the three chapters. believe me.

catcha later everyone. i have something to do. :)